Kealia writes of how she imagines her pregnancy might be expressed from her baby's point of view…

Early Moments
Wow!! It's so cozy in here. What place is this? Ah, I know, it's my mom's womb. How wonderful! It feels really safe, comfortable and secure in here. I like it.

I'm 21 days old now and my heart is beating. My mom does not know that I exist yet. I wonder what she is going to say when she finds out. She missed her period and is doing a pregnancy test. Today is the BIG day!! I'm here, Mom, and I already love you!

Dark Days
But there is something wrong. She is struggling. Oh, I see. My dad does not know that I exist. He went back to Tahiti where he lives. I guess they did not have a relationship. And my mom is already a single parent. I have an older brother whose dad died a couple of years ago in a car accident. What a tragedy!! My mom must be going through some really hard times. I'm sorry, Mom!

Things look even harder as I find out more about her story. My grandfather died 4 years ago and soon after that she got pregnant with my brother. My grandmother encouraged her to have the baby and she is the one that helps my mom to take care of him. But now, oh no! My grandmother is dying of lupus. What a tragedy! What is Mom going to do all by herself with two kids to raise? She is feeling alone, scared and worried about finances. I can understand all that. It is a very hard place to be.

She feels like I am a burden, but I love you, Mom. Will you keep me?

No, she is not keeping me. My world is falling apart. I feel so alone in here. This place seems to be dark now. I am sad and afraid of what will happen. I don't want to die.

A Window of Hope
Wait, she is looking for help. The Pregnancy Center…What kind of place is this? Will they care for my mom? I hope so. She is getting a lot of information on the abortion procedure, and she is exploring choices other than abortion. I sure hope she finds a better option that will benefit her and me. I can tell Mom is scared now that she knows what the procedure looks like, but she is still considering abortion. The pressure of the circumstances is too much for her to bear. She feels heard and understood here, though, and that's a good feeling.

Now what is that? Is it a window? Yes, they are looking at me through the ultrasound!! Hi Mommy! I'm right here. I'm only 7 weeks old, but I'm alive!

What a wonderful feeling! This is the best moment of my life! There has been a change in my mom's heart, I can feel it. It is a radical change. My mom is bonding with me…We connect…She looks at me, she sees my heart beating and she sees LIFE. She knows in her heart that I am a girl and she feels that I am hers. Yes, Mom, I am your girl! It is as if she sees a part of herself in me.

I think she loves me! Mom, I love you too! It feels so good to bond with you. That's what I was created for. Now that I can feel your love for me, I can feel God's love for me. He has a purpose for my life. I know my mom is going to keep me now; she is in love with me. Isn't that wonderful? My life has a meaning. I feel like thriving, I can grow and develop and be everything that God created me to be. I feel like jumping!

Here I Am!
Time went fast. I am 40 weeks old and I'm ready to get out of here and look my mom in the eyes. I can hardly wait for that moment. I know she will love me even more after she sees me. It is August 5th, 2008 and I am outside. It is so wonderful to be alive and my mom feels the same. Do you know that she calls me and my big brother "her heroes"? She says we saved her life. Because of us, she does not party or drink anymore. She says my big brother is her "right hand man" and that I'll be her "left hand girl". Isn't that cool? Every morning when we wake up, my mom looks at me and I can see that she is filled up with joy. It's the joy that only a mom can feel when she looks at her child. And it brightens up my day.

Sariah, Kealia's daughter, a child of the Almighty God.

Kealia visited The Pregnancy Center.

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